Freedom from perfectionism
Have you ever had a headache that just won’t go away? Day after day you wake up with your head throbbing, and you can barely lift your head from the pillow? I have…
For the last few days, I have had one of these types of headaches. It was a headache that was not responding to homeopathy, or Reiki, or rest, or (dare I say) pharmaceuticals. Very frustrating! Especially for a natural health practitioner!!!
Yesterday, I took the day off work. For me, this is extreme. I hardly ever have a sick day. I am one of these people who smile and soldier on, until my health deteriorates to the point that I cannot put one foot in front of the other.
As I was lying in bed, wondering what to do about this headache, I decided to be become very mindful of this pain. I did a body scan, and noticed the tension in my jaw, my neck, my shoulders, down the whole left side of my skull and face. I breathed into this pain, and noticed it lessen somewhat.
I began thinking about which flower essences I might need. I thought about the tension in my jaw, and how rigid my muscles felt. I thought about remedies for rigidity and tension. I thought about remedies for inflexibility, and my mind settled on Rock Water.
Those who are very strict in their way of living; they deny themselves many of the joys and pleasures of life because they consider it might interfere with their work.
They are hard masters to themselves. They wish to be well and strong and active, and will do anything which they believe will keep them so.
Dr Edward Bach
Hmmm… This sounded very familiar. I realised I was definitely in a Rock Water state, and probably had been for a very long time.
As I continued to mindfully observe my emotions, I also noticed a huge sense of guilt. I felt incredibly guilty that I wasn’t at work. Feeling guilty is a Pine state.
For those who blame themselves. Even when successful they think they could have done better, and are never content with their efforts or the results. They are hard-working and suffer much from the faults they attach to themselves.
Dr Edward Bach
I took some Rock Water and Pine, and went back to bed.
As I lay resting, I felt the remedies working. The tension in my head, neck and shoulders began melting away. I felt as though invisible hands were gently kneading my rigid muscles and reminding them how to be soft and supple.
When my headache had eased to the point where I could move again without feeling like my head was about to explode, I wandered to my bookcase, and picked up a book on Bach Flowers that I have never read. I read Rock Water first… Time stopped as I read these words:
Interestingly, a sensitive taking Rock Water felt ‘gently caressed all over his body’, experiencing a ‘rebirth into reality’ as he put it.
This sense of being massaged was not my imagination. Others also experience this!
I then read Pine.
Guilt often tempers the Pine-type person’s whole feeling for life, with the result of physically he tends to be tired and worn out. The joy of living plays practically no role in the life of Pine people. They are the type of people who are never really satisfied with themselves, despite many positive experiences, and blame themselves for not having taken more trouble. A person in the negative Pine state asks more of himself than of others, and if the high standards applied to himself cannot be lived up to, he will desperately blame himself in his heart.
I realised that this state of guilt (Pine) , that pushes me to work tirelessly in an attempt to achieve ‘perfection’ (Rock Water), has been with me for most of my life. I realised that this desire to reach ‘perfection’ has been driving me. Driving me to work beyond my limits, driving me to exhaustion…
This headache that did not respond to any remedies I normally prescribe for myself has given me the most precious gift. I have had the opportunity to observe a level of my emotional state that previously I was blind to. I have had insights into how to heal through this, and now that I am feeling so much better I can share this wisdom with you.
Are you a perfectionist?
Do you drive yourself to the point of exhaustion to achieve standards that you would never impose on others?
Do you feel guilty that you haven’t lived up to your impossibly high standards and achieved everything on your never-ending to-do list?
If you answered yes to these questions, Pine and Rock Water may help release you from these limiting beliefs, and free you to be yourself in all your beauty. Joy may return to your life, energy may replenish your being, and inner peace may reside contentedly in your heart.
If you would like to talk more about Bach Flower Remedies and how they may help you, please contact me and I would be honoured to assist you on your healing journey.